feeling fine

it's had been one week ago since Choco passed away. I really missed her so much. somehow my house feel empty, even we have another kitten :/

okay enough emo-ing. this one make me more sicker than my school.

Anyway thanks to my dad for allowing me to trade old handphone to new model <3>
click picture to enlarge.
really nice huh? plus it very affordable <3

gone.

choco with her favourite doll.

my beloved kitten, choco is passed away yesterday, at 10.30 pm when her last breaths stopped. I really sad, mad, crying and blamed myself because I'm too pushy. I just wanted she be healthly and we can play together. but she is gone. She died in my arms.

I will missed her voice
I will missed her kiss
I will missed her face
but I will remember her in my hearts.
You're my best friends in my life.

My house seems empty. Since she's gone, no more joy. sometime I will call her when we come back home. I really missed her face. I missed her joy when she see me. She is only best friends I ever had in life. Only things she left to me is, her favorite teddy bear, Mr.White and Mr.Big

I wish she have one day to sleep with me, but Allah take her away. I hope she is peace at least she is not suffering anymore. Only yesterday I can see her before she passed away. I wanted to she to grown up to be beautiful cat but now she is gone.

May she rest in peace.

I will love you, chocolate. I love you. And we will remember you, always.

my love

I missed my old friends.
I missed my ol'd days with my childhood.
I missed everything great happened in my life.

But there is something I missed in life.
It's called "Love"
I missed my love.
My love who raised mine when I was baby
My love taught me everything
From basic to advance.
My love who willing accompany me when my parents gone.
My love who protect me from danger.
My love who cook delicious cook for me with kind heart.
My love who share my feelings when I was sad or happy

But
My love is gone.
Gone forever.
Because Allah called my love to go back to Him.
I'm sad
because I wanted my love
spend my life before I'm adult.
My love is only one I had in my life.
I don't mad of Allah
I just wished if my love given one more chance
I want to say to my love that
"I LOVE YOU"
I want to be with you.

But, my love still gone.
Gone forever.
But,
I will remember every single moment when we together
I will try my best to keep my love happy
My love will watch me.
Always.

My love is my maid.
She is my second-mom who raised me, took care of me, and taught me everything.
I will love her forever.
No matter sad, happy, laugh, cry
I will love her.
She is my love.

My love now is heaven.
with our Greatest God, Allah s.w.t.

Al-fatihah.

Top 10

TOP TEN

★ TEN THINGS ABOUT ME ★

1. Are you single?
- Yes.

2. Are you happy about that?
- Yea. Sure why not :D

3. Are you bored?
- Yes. Nothing to do.

4. Are you sad?
- Sometime.

5. Are you Italian?
- Nope. Do I like them?

6. Are you pregnant?
- No. Not that time yet.

8. Are you cool?
- Kinda.

9. Are you Irish?
- Hell no D:<

10. Are your parents still married?
- Of course. They still :]

★ TEN FACTS ★

1. Initials
- FS. It seems like Friendster LOL xD

2. Nicknames
- Farah/Syuhada/rarsa/kazu

3. Birth place
- Ipoh, Perak.

4. Hair color
- Black

5. Hair style
– Long and my hairstyle look like Japanese girl.

6. Eye color
- Black

7. Birthday
- 25 June :D

8. Mood
- Mellow

9. Favorite color
- Black, white, dark blue, green.

10. Left or right handed
- Right but I can handle both.


★TEN THIS OR THAT? ★

1. Love or money?
- Both.

2. Hard liquor or beer?
- I don't drink sorry :0

3. Cats or dogs?
- Cats.

4. A few best friends or many regular
friends?
- Both :D

5. Television or Internet?
- Both.

6. Pepsi or coke?
- Both <3

7. Wild night out or romantic night
in?
- Sorry. I'm not like that rofl

8. Money or Happiness?
- Both.

9. Night or day?
- Night

10. AIM or phone?
- YM & MSN <3

★ TEN HAVE YOU EVERS ★

1. Been caught sneaking out?
- Nope.

2. Been skinny dipping?
- LMAO nope.

3. Done something you regret?
- Yes :<

4. Bungee jumped?
- nope. aku gayat xD

5. Scuba dived?
- No

6. breaker?
- No

7.Changed a diaper?
- Well maybe LOL xDDDD

8. Wanted an ex back?
- I don't have ex.

9. Cried because you lost a pet?
- Yes. Some of them died and gone missing TAT

10. Wanted to disappear?
- Yes. I want disappear. No one want me :/

★ TEN PREFERENCES IN A RELATIONSHIP ★

1. Smile or eyes:
- Voice :D but I prefer both

2. Light or dark hair:
- Both :DDDDDD

3. Hugs or kisses:
- Molest! I want both 8DD

4. Intelligence or attraction:
- intelligence and attraction make my heart's melt.

5. Hook-up or relationship:
- Well.......

6. Trust or love:
- Trust and love

7. Long distance or close:
- mana2lah asalkan rindu padamu <3

8. Call or text:
- Text. save my credit haha xD

9. Older or younger:
- younger guy is fine. I prefer
someone 4-8 years older than me :3

10.Looks or Personality?:
- Personality and look.

★ TEN LAST ★

1. Last phone call you made:
- Nobody.

2. Last phone call you received:
- my mum.

3. Last person/people you hung out
with
- nobody.

5. Last person you tackled
- Nobody.

6. Last person you im'd:
- Angel aka Vinnie the pooh <3

8. Last person you hugged:
- Nobody

9. Last person you slept with:
- I sleep alone. wish I can sleep with Hyde :DDDDDD

10. Last person you laughed w/ :
- I don't recall :0

shi-

holy shi- finally I got my final exam's result last year.

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I got number 13 in my class. I got 2B. I guess I need study hard, to get better grade.. curse. I really hate with my classmate that they're happy when they found out their result. WHATEVER, I don't care. I put alot effort in studying, not like them where they can gather and doing homework together :/ unlike me, I don't have any friends live near to study together. I missed my ol' day. I haven't see my best friends long time since Yogesh got jobs as a teacher while Jeya, Tamil, Guna, and Tina went to college :/ I missed them - so much.

Btw I just talked with my father about my handphones :D He said maybe he can, but we need to check out first if they sell them. Finally I wanted to buy slim handphones for me because I can hide my slim HP in my dress since my school like surprise spot-check :/

I want to buy because only handphone I can call my parents to pick me since my session end at 3.00 pm. Geez I really hate to go the office to call my parents because after school end, the office will closed immediately D:

And also...

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT MY CLASSMATE IS ACTUALLY ONE OF MY TEACHER'S SON!!!




man, I can't believe. I thought he was someone but when I realized that he is my teacher's son. His father thought Bahasa Melayu in my class. I just founded out when my family and I went to Salim's restaurant for dinner and later we meet Mr.Wahab and his family. Can't believe that.. How stupid am I D:

I haven't meet Sabrina. I wanted to say condolences to her family that her grandparent's pass away last years.

I must go. Time to sleep, otherwise I will nagged by my mum :)

back to school

YESH FINALLY I CAN GET BACK TO SCHOOL! :D

Man, it had been 2 month since holiday started. I really missed my school so much because only that place I can study there :D I missed my teacher there <33333

Anyway back to story, nothing new about my school expect...

1. OMG new student Form 1 - are cuteeeeeee <3 looking at them make you will feel drooling and wanna pet them xD omg looking at them, boys always short :3 nah don't worry someday they will grow taller :DD

2. Canteen - Okay, all foods is fine, the eviroment also fine, just they need to better in cleanliness. I saw a mak cik trying putting all mi in the bowl with chopstick and cut mi by using her hands. I dunno if her hands really... clean :0 anyway I dislike with food's price. Chicken = RM 2 Nasi Goreng/Me goreng = RM 1.50. Whoa, so expensive. I don't have any money to buy them :< Drinks is okay plus also cheap :D small glass = 50 cent while big glass = RM1

3. Gone - My classmate is gone. Only 5 people left :< I just found out that our 5 classmate left our school because they got offer from UiTM and Politeknik. Man, I really missed them :< especially Eykin, Amy, Azleen, Fadhil and Tembik. They are only one who make our class more merrier.. anyway never mind, I don't angry with them :) at least they know what to do. I really missed Yana :) she often asked me to draw something for her :D btw she also Pooh's lover XD

enough with my story, now time to write my resolution :3

1. Start remembering Allah s.w.t. as often as I possibly can.
2. Start transforming into a better person. No more bad temper :<
3. Start exercising regularly. I WANT TO BE THIN D:
4. Start STUDYING STUDYING STUDYING. until dead.
5. Start eating LESS. Everything.
6. Forget all bad memories of 2007.
7. Stop fagging and make people hate me.
8. Stop being friends with someone I know
9. Or at least try to avoid I know.
10. Must score STPM 2008 D:
11. Must save my money to buy new tablet + handphone Nokia 5160 or maybe Nokia 5310 <3

Not very easy to do this uh?